Keep Pushing Forward?

This semester is hard. I am actually supposed to be writing a paper for my Seminar in Dance class right now but I just needed to clear my head. So in result, here I am writing a blog post.

Wedding planning is going great. I don't seem nearly as stressed with that as a lot of my other friends are. I am just doing bit by bit. If you haven't heard the colors for the wedding, they are Grey, Yellow, and a splash of Navy Blue. Here are the color swatches from Behr Paint that I have chosen:
Peaceful Night (590F-7)
Neon Light (580B-5)
Wild Sage (700F-6)

School is stressing me out however. I have never had to write so much in my life. I did not think that this semester was going to be as crazy as it is right now. This semester has been filled of paper after paper after paper. I have been loosing things left and right including and not limiting it to... My brand new purse with EVERYTHING inside it; my grey peacoat with my keys, iPod charger, and headphones; my new ID card; oh and my iPod. Yeah. I don't know what the heck is wrong with me. I cannot slow down to make sure that I have this or that and am grabbing everything because if I do, I will be getting even more behind in school work than I already am. I need a blessing I think. I would actually really apreciate your prayers that I will keep going and not give up. If I keep with school I will be completely done in Fall 2014 (Going straight -Fall 2013, Winter 2014, Spring 2014, Summer 2014, and Fall 2014). I need to finish. I can't give up but I could sure use some extra motivation.

My body has been having little minor problems here and there but over all I haven't had any injuries. The only real problem that I have had has been very tight arches in Ballet. It has been hard but I deal with it. Today was pretty bad but I have some really great days.

Chad has been a great force of motivation for me. He keeps telling me that I can do it. He has been helping me write a thesis for this paper and that and has been letting me just relax when I cannot handle it anymore and am getting overwhelmed. He is such a rock for me and I really need that. I appreciate it so very much.

Okay. Well I had probably go and write this darn paper. Here is to pushing forward.

The big purchases...

So we have some exciting news....

This girl has a dress! AND!! We just got our photographer officially! YAY! Wedding planning is going swell!

Hope everyone is loving life right now!

2012: Pain, Misery, and Absolute JOY

A pretty little check came in the mail today. Thank heavens. I don't have to be scraping by pay check to pay check again. Pel Grants save me so much. I have to say though, I love not having any debt. I haven't had any debt in a very long time and it feels SO GOOD.

Last year was NOT an easy one. I had so many issues. Between the massive debt (not too bad but enough that I was not in a good place with myself... I never want to be there again), family fights, boy troubles, and really hard classes it was not a year that I would like to really remember all the details.

However. The best and most important things happened to me in 2012. I grew so much as a person. I learned so much about myself. My relationship with my Father in Heaven has never been so good. And to top it all off, Chad.

I learned he was to come home a year early from his mission because he had a back injury. Of course I wasn't happy that he was hurt or that he had to come back early but I knew that he was supposed to be here. I was excited to be able to talk with him again. To see him. To fully love him. And guess what? I got all of that and MUCH more. I was able to go out to New York to visit him and meet his wonderful and amazing family over the Thanksgiving break. My birthday was spent out there too. He then came back to Provo in December to come back to school and be with me.

The best part about the year 2012 was that I got to be with the love of my life. He will never leave me. He isn't going anywhere. I am not going anywhere. If I were to go anywhere... I would make him come with me. If he were to go anywhere... I would follow him like a sheep follows the shepherd (bad analogy? Very diligently would I follow). He came to Provo and the next place we will live in our lives outside of here will be where the Lord wants us to go. Chad is the best thing to ever happen in my life. I love him and he loves me. I am happy that I can now officially say that he isn't just that boyfriend in Hamburg, NY. I can now say that he is my fiance but I can't wait to call him my husband.

Only a few more months and we will be sealed. 5.7.13 It has a special ring to it now doesn't it?

Perfection in our eyes

I have been thinking a lot about what married life will be like for me. I never thought that I would have a wonderful man like Chad. I never thought I would find "perfect", and honestly, I would still feel that way about a marriage if it didn't work out. That is until I read a wonderful post by my friend Elsha Rae. She posted about how someone thought that she tried to seem perfect when she wasn't.

How hurtful. Elsha is a person. I loved reading her post today in regards to that comment. She took it and made people see what "perfect" meant to her. That is the perfect I know I have found. Here is a little of what she says in her blog:

...That is what is perfect to me. Perfect is making a dinner for two, burning it to pieces and ending up getting Chinese take out. Perfect is sometimes having a messy house because of the hard work and the hustle and bustle of it all... Perfect is having an argument and realizing buried beneath the squirmy tummy and flushed cheeks that you can be naive and wrong, and then laughing about it... And falling in love is beyond perfect.

...Perfection is in so many things that are not noticed... Everyone always says "Its about the little things." I could not agree with that more. 

So a million thanks to Elsha. Thank you for being honest. Thank you for having fun. Thank you for caring enough to say what perfect meant for you, because soon, I will have that perfect. 

I strongly suggest you read the blog post I took excerpts out from. She wrote it all so well and came from a very loving place.

Updates and CAW info

I haven't updated for a long time.

Sorry.

Life is life. School is almost done for the semester. Work is going well. My relationship is amazing and in a mere 10 days (!!) I get to see him and meet his parents. What a lucky girl I am!

I have a test this week. Do I feel ready? haha nope. I need to do some more studying and hope for the best. Wish me luck!

I have decided to be done with my Folk Dancing career at the end of this semester. Christmas Around the World is my last hurrah as a folk dancer! I will be moving on in my major by doing other genres.

Speaking of Christmas Around the World, for the first time ever, it will be in the ROUND!! All of the seats in the Marriott Center will be open. All the way around the stage. I am in three numbers. A Russian and Serbian number with my team and then I am tapping as a special guest in a BRAND SPANKIN NEW percussion piece. In this piece there are six different types of footwork. Tap, American Clogging, Irish, French Canadian, Welsh Clogging, and English Clogging. Wooden shoes will be worn and all that jazz. This is going to be awesome. They are all going to be SAWEET! Also, to sweeten the deal.... We have a lot of special guests this year. One of them being the Utah Aerialists! That is right, we have aerialists in our show! I open the show with the girls on my team.

You can get tickets three ways: The HFAC ticket office, the Marriott Center ticket office, and online at arts.byu.edu! If you use the code Dance112 it gives me credit as to who sold the tickets and if you use the code CHRISTMAS2012 (You can redeem it online at this site: http://ev9.evenue.net/cgi-bin/ncommerce3/EVExecMacro?linkID=byu&evm=prmo&RSRC&RDAT&caller=PR or tell the ticket office about it) for a $2 discount off of tickets!

I would love you all to come. The dates are November 30-December 1. There are two night shows at 7:30p and on the 1st there is a mat. performance at 2:00p. Please come! It will not be a performance you will want to miss!

The Flood Begins

Holy smokes! Two years.... I can't believe it. Joseph Mohrman is home. I have had some messages back and forth with him through Facebook and I am just going a little crazy inside knowing that he is HOME and I can see him soon. Two years. Man. I feel so weirded out today.

And so the flood of missionaries coming home begin.....

Long Awaited Update

Oh dear blog. I have neglected you so much and I am sorry about that.

Here is a little update on life.

School has finally started! I have a good semester course load. I am taking German 101, Methods of Teaching World Dance, Beginning Irish, Advanced Percussive Footwork I am on the Back-Up Folk Dance team again, and I am retaking Statistics. I am also a TA for my friend Kellianne's beginning clogging class. 

I have not had a lot of homework yet but it has only been the first week of school. I am excited to see how things play out for me. 

I got a raise at work! I am way excited about that! I have been working there for just over a year now and I love it there. I just hate that it is so far a way from the rest of the world on campus and at my apartment. :( What a shame. haha

Chad Lanham came home. He came home because of a back injury. He served a very full mission. The stories I have heard from him and the comments and posts that friends from Brasil have said on his Facebook definitely show that he was a great missionary.

Well Chad and I are now dating. We have been since he came home pretty much. However last night we made it official in a lot of peoples eyes and opinions. We posted it on.... gasp... Facebook. haha I didn't care either way, if we did or didn't, but we decided to do it so he could get it over with and let it out to his friends in New York. He told the ones that really would care rather in person or called them before we posted it.

Isn't he just the bees knees?