Extra Extra I got to pay for it!

Being a dancer definitely has its pros and cons.

I just bought my books for Winter Semester. I had two packets, one pallet text book, and a reading book. I don't know what I need for my other religion class (Book of Mormon and LDS Marriage and Family) but so far that is all I had to buy. My total was less than $100! This is crazy! Everyone will be very jealous that my books don't cost that much... little do they know however is that I have to actually pay for much more. I have a lot of clothes and shoes that I have to pay for. I need to get new tap shoes for example. They cost at least $65.

Clothes are worth it though. I love having them because I go through them incredibly fast. Books. Love me some cheap ones.

To love the break, or not. That is the question.

Semester Break.

I do not like you very much. I honestly don't know how to respond to all of the snow and the power outages we have had with in the past two days! It is quite frustrating.

I do not like that I can't see my grades yet. Snow College and UVU have already gotten theirs but I don't get mine until the 29th or so. I hope I did okay. I am mostly just worried about my History 220 class. That class was only based on three essay tests. I didn't do very hot on the second one.... or the first for that matter. I just hope I did a lot better on the final to bring up my grade. I hate it because I am so not a writer. I write how I speak for the most part and that is a down fall to me.

I do not like getting up early on a break. Unfortunately, I have a lot of family that helps me get up by just being up... The couch is very comfortable however so I don't mind all that much.

No class!

Yeah... that is pretty much it.

Disappointed

The friends that I posted about before have not changed a whole lot. There is one however that I am very disappointed with....

Nichole (name change as an obvious sign), I want to shake her and just say, "WAKE UP! You know better than this! You were raised correctly, not like this. Get back to church on a weekly basis! Stop letting your boyfriend go into your room and stop going into his! It isn't right. You know that. Where is the girl I knew during the summer? Because you aren't that girl anymore. You can do better than him and he can do better than you." I am so happy that I have the honor code at BYU because it helps me to continue living how I have been taught. I am happy to know however that I don't need it. My parents have taught me well and they have helped me get the desire to live righteously. I don't know if I should even continue being this girls friend because she has dumped me for this guy... whatever happened to sisters before misters??

What's in your wallet??

I have many a bags. Which bag do you want to know about?

Purse:

• An assorted count of pens and pencils
• My hymnal but I am not sure why exactly
• Velvet Tuberose lotion
• Hand sanitizer
• Wallet
• My pink (fruity and bright) perfume! Love it!
• Tylenol
• Ibuprofen
• Deodorant
• Mints
• Tissues
• Lipstick
• Lip balm
• Eye drops (one for contacts and one for just my eyes)
• Keys usually (if not in my pocket)
• Phone usually (if not in my pocket)
• and.... A rubber ducky!

Dance bag:

Well I don't have a dance bag right now. I need a duffel bag really bad. But I will tell you as soon as I get get one. :)

You're Craving What?

I crave music. I crave Cafe Rio. I crave my happy moments that I have recently lost.

I have been craving water all day. I also have been craving soda lately, which makes me really mad. I hadn't had any since I moved in until Thanksgiving. I was so proud of myself. I don't have money to buy it so I don't buy it then I don't crave it. I have been craving it so much lately and I hate it.

I don't get many cravings very often. Wonder what I will crave when I am married and get pregnant. haha What do you think?

Special

What makes me special? Well, now that is a good question.....

I don't know and right now I don't want to think about why I am special. I am too down in the dumps..... GR...

I need a visit to my happy place.

There are some certain places that I would love to go to right now. They just always make me happy.... or they did when I was there.

Huntington Beach, California. So amazing! It was beautiful and I had never seen the beach before so going there was a definite treat!


Disneyland/California Adventure -More specifically the ferris wheel at California Adventure. I went on it with Spencer but when we were on it they were testing the Wonderful World of Color. That was a treat to see because they do it right by the ferris wheel. So much fun! That whole day at Disneyland was so much fun!

I would love to go back to high school some days. That is for sure! I need to get away from finals stress that will be hitting even harder at the end of the week... that is for sure. High school brought a lot of happy days to my life. I kind of want them back. This semester has been kind of a downer mostly. Fun, don't get me wrong, but kind of an emotional roller coaster.

Lifehouse... I love that place. Always. No question. It makes me happy

My happy place though is in my dancing mind. I can just go there and everything is hunky dory. Can I go there now instead of being at work?? or having to deal with finals or cleaning checks?? haha I love it but it can get overwhelming.

18 years come and gone

I was reading a blog that a friend of my sister's has. I read what she did when she had her birthday and I thought it was a great idea!

18

This year was full of so much jam pack stuff -good and bad.

18 meant me being a legal adult.

18 was when I graduated from High School

18 lead me to going on Choir Tour. We went to Anaheim, California. This was the first time I had ever been to California, seen the ocean, been to an actual beach, and been to Disneyland (which truly is the happiest place on earth)!

18 brought me to getting to know one of my best friends.

18 lead me to have a boyfriend that I had longer than two weeks, and am still friends with. I personally don't count the other two... Tyler Nicosia and Neal Pemberton only lasted about two weeks.

18 had me getting into BYU-Provo.

18 was when I got accepted into the Dance Education Major at BYU-Provo.

18 was when I finished paying off my first car by my self!

18 gave me my job at BYU Independent Studies.

18 was when I became a dance teacher at my old dance studio Lifehouse Performing Arts Academy.

I loved being 18, as hard as this last year has been on me emotionally, it really was a treat for me. I had enough bad/hard times but I would rather not look back on them.

19 what do you have to offer me?

Who am I to marry?

Well. This would be a whole lot easier if I actually was dating someone or if I was actually married.

I have a few people that I would love to marry but honestly, I don't know who it will be.

My Mom and my sister would want me to say a certain boy named *Nick* (name has been changed for my own good) but right now I just want to get through school. I am not really ready to think about marriage. I just got out of high school. Why do I feel like everyone is rushing me to start dating? I just got out of a relationship and I don't want my heart broken again to soon. Why would I do that to myself?

I don't know who I will marry. I guess I will answer that when I actually thinking about getting married... so in other words -ask me in a couple years.

Nicknames

Nicknames are fun. Some can be embarrassing but they are mostly fun.

Katy: All around nickname but not a lot of people call me it. It is mostly said by Lexi, Spencer, Ben, and my mom.

Katy-did: Jason, my oldest brother, started calling me this when I was born. We lived in Indiana where Cicadas are called Katy-did's out there. Katy came to Katy-did when he looked at me because I looked like a bug. haha

Wheeze: My papa calls me this all the time.

Squirt: Jason,once again, calls me Squirt. I am the squirt of the family so it makes sense for him to call me this.

Katybug: A few of my friends went on a stint of calling me this during jr. high.

I guess I don't have a lot of them. hm. haha

Plans, Dreams and Goals

I have a lot planned for this week! Actually for the rest of the semester in reality. :)

First up is driving down to Snow College tonight and then back to Elk Ridge tomorrow afternoon. I am watching the weather don't worry. The storm isn't supposed to hit the Nephi area until like 7 pm on Tuesday. It is clear for the rest of today and through the night. I am staying the night at Lexi Brown's apartment and we are going to party hardy all night long and then come back up in my car.

Next on the agenda is having a good birthday on Wednesday. I can't believe that I am going to be 19 years old. That just seems so weird to me. I don't know why but it is. After last year, I want to have a birthday that I won't forget! 19 feels like a big deal for some reason.

Thanksgiving! I am planing on it.

Friday is going to be a night with Celeste Lee, Christy Pray, and possibly Celeste's boyfriend Tyler. Christy asked Celeste and I to be her bridesmaids for her wedding and we are super excited. We are going to talk about her reception and catch up on each others lives and what not! I am longing for this night to come.

Saturday will be another girls night. This one will be two other friends of mine Ashley Smith, and Lindsay Fulton! We are wanting to get together because we miss each other very much. I love these two girls and can't wait to see them!

December plans and goals are to finish my FIRST SEMESTER OF COLLEGE!! Yahoo! That seems so crazy to me at this moment that I will be that much closer to getting my degree. Yeah I know I have like four to five more years here but I am taking it bit by bit and so far, so good.

Long term goals are things like getting my degree from BYU. I plan to make the Dance Education Major turn from a 5 year program to 4 or 4 1/2 years. I plan to take Spring and Summer classes to do my generals that way really. Another goal- find a rocking apartment that I love for the Spring/Summer terms to see if I want to live there for the Fall. I have a couple that are on my list so far and can't wait to keep looking and what not.

Getting married and raising a family. No not just married, but married to someone worthy of his priesthood. He will want to take me to the temple and start a family with me. That is my ultimate goal. I know that getting my degree is on the high priority list at the moment and that is okay with me. I don't want to get married super early. I want to get married to the right man who will treat me with respect and treat my children with respect as well.

Become a dance teacher. I am pretty much there on this one. I got a job at my old dance studio and I am loving every minute of it so far.

Last but not least- be financially stable for my whole life. I need to be better at managing my money. I am doing a pretty dang good job in my opinion but there is always room for improvement. It can only get better right?? Well let's hope. I want to be financially stable enough in my life, single and married, to be able to go on a mission.

Why switch lives?

Who would I want to switch lives with for a day? I have never really thought about switching my life to live in someone else's shoes. In reality this question wants me to say, I hate my life and I want to live this person's life because the grass looks greener. But it isn't the case for me. I think my grass looks greener at the moment.

Life is going so well.

I am turning 19 on Wednesday. As weird as that seems to me to be an adult (yeah... 18 didn't really count until I moved out) and as much as I am kind of fighting it, I am now starting to get excited. I get to be with my family and friends on my birthday. I am one of the lucky Freshman because my family lives so close. I can see them almost any time. Another plus about my birthday... It is around Thanksgiving so my friends will all be home! YAY!

I am dancing everyday. Not just three times a week for hours on end, but every day for hours on end and I love it! I can do what I want and I can become better in an environment that I grew up dancing in. How is that not lucky?

I am an aunt to 23 wonderful nieces and Nephews and still more to come. I love them so much- even the old ones aka Caleb, Daniel, and Jared. They are like my own children. Hopefully I can take the lessons of being around them as they grow and as my siblings teach their children into my own teaching as a mother.

I have the gospel in my life and have had the opportunity to be a teacher in Relief Society and have wonderful teachers and leaders that have helped me gain the testimony that I hold dear to my heart.

See these are just a few, literally a few, things that make me happy to live in my own shoes. I guess I wouldn't really want to switch lives with anyone for a day. Not even a celebrity because I think I have the better life.

Yet another side of me

I am supposed to put up another picture of myself? Okay then.

The last picture I put up of myself was just of me smiling... Here is one that says who I really am. A Dance Education Major in the making.

This picture was taken by Elise Williams. I was bored today during work so I took it and added my own little Photoshop flare.

Well, I don't have an ipod...

Well, seeing as I don't have an ipod, this is the closest thing... Grooveshark! Yay!

I am supposed to put my ipod (gooveshark music) on shuffle and put the first 10 songs that pop up. This will be interesting since I have a lot of two artists and then some random songs thrown in there as well.

1: Heart Cooks Brain by Modest Mouse- I was recommended to listen to this song by Spencer. I like this song a lot.

2:Sweet Chariot by Charlotte Martin- Danced to this song last year. Brings back good memories

3:Nemo Egg (Main Title) from Finding Nemo- This song has a meaning to me that I don't want to explain. It is very personal and I miss those days.

4:Let the Rain by Sara Bareilles- Love love love this whole album! (Album is Kaleidescope Heart)

5: Safety Dance from the show Glee- Yeah boy!!

6:Bluebird by Sara Bareilles- Yes I have a lot of her. She is my one of my favorite artists. Especially lately.

7:Float On by Modest Mouse- Also recommended by Spencer.

8: The Best Two Years from the movie The Best Two Years- I used to think about David when I heard this song but now I think about Joseph because he is out there as well.

9: First Train Home by Imogen Heap - Another great song from another great album and another amazing artist! (Album is Eclipse- her most recent album)

10: Better Together (Hawaiian Version) by Jack Johnson - I found this one by mistake and I love it more than the original.

:) There you go! A small look into what music I love to listen to.

Familie

James (papa), Christina (momma), Jason, Adam, Chelsey, Jess, Adrianne, Lindsey, Lance, David, Gillian, myself, and Ammon the stud.

That is my family for you.

The picture was taken at Gillian's wedding so this has her in her dress and her husband is in the picture as well.

Letter to...

Writing a letter to someone that has hurt me recently -I don't really know who I would write a letter to. I have had some things happen where I was hurt but I don't like to hold grudges. I guess this will help me let go of one...

Lindsay Chant-

You have hurt me in a way that is hard to repair. I felt emotionally abused in your class. You were a great teacher, but not for me. I did learn a lot from you but I didn't feel like you wanted me to learn. I don't know if you saw what I have to offer and how good I am. That doesn't matter anymore though, because I see it, the teachers there at Lifehouse saw it. Apparently I have talent because I got into the Dance Education major at BYU.

You made me feel like I would never get there, well guess what? I did. I have learned more about how to hold my core in a contemporary class than I have in your class for the past four years.

Thank you for those days where I would get something out of you. I know that I can turn and my turns, especially on pointe, got so much better because you helped me.

What I need from you now, is respect. I can only respect you when I feel like you have a shred of respect for me. I am at your level now as a teacher. I am no student of yours anymore and I need to be treated that way from now on.

I am letting go.

Kaitlin Clark

Why Blog?

My family lives in pretty different places.

We go from Elk Ridge, Utah, we extend to Provo; Salt Lake City; Iowa City; Dayton, Ohio; Cherry Hill, NJ; Fairfax, VA; Tampa, FL; and Weisbaden, Germany.

We started the blog as a way to keep in contact with each other and to know what was going on. We have a family blog and then we all have our separate blogs. I don't really know why I started one but I am happy I did.

Blessed with Friends

I have a lot of friends that I wrote down for this day. Pictures of my friends and I... Well I decided to mix it up a bit. Here are the friends that I have been close to for a while or are just getting to get to know them.

First up-

Trace Marriott.

He isn't that much of a Cowboy as he looks, I promise. ;) He is from Salt Lake City. He got his mission call to Argentina and goes into the MTC the beginning of March. I will miss him very much. He has become a great friend who I can tell anything to and I appreciate that. He is the 11th child of 11... Big family... sound familiar?

Next we have....

Joseph Mohrman!
This picture was taken (obviously) at our high school graduation.

He is currently in the Netherlands on a mission. He just got on Monday. I miss him dearly. He was one of those guys that made me feel so much better about myself no matter what. He always encouraged me to do what was right. He was actually the one that told me that I would be married before he got back from his mission. He then would add, "I hope not because you want to go on a mission, and I hope you can." He really has helped me get through a lot of things. We were able to go to the Temple and do baptisms. He did the actual ordinance himself and that was a day I will never forget. I can't wait until he gets back from his mission so we can play again!

My roommates!
Tiffany Yeates and Deanna Cardwell
This picture was taken during Halloween weekend. So much fun!
When I moved to Provo I had no idea what was going to go down between me and my two roommates. We never had met each other before but we clicked with in the first day! We have many many inside jokes and I love it! I will never forget these girls.They have been amazing.

Spencer Kearl Ericksen

This picture was of us during the 4th of July weekend.

Yes we used to date and things were hard after we had to break up but we are at a place where we are great friends. He makes me laugh all of the time just by saying little things. His friendship is more important to me than anything that we had when we were dating. I think he is a great guy. He is a percussionist and down at Snow College on a scholarship. So yeah, I am glad we are friends now.

Sarah Clark

This picture was taken in Seattle outside of the Museum of Flight. We were on Choir tour (junior year for me) and we were messing around with the bust.

What to say about this girl?! Sarah is a doll. She has helped me through so much. I have had a lot of things go down and she was there to help me every time. When Ammon (my brother) was going through all of the surgeries I had a really hard day where I just completely broke down and she was there to help me. I really appreciate her and all that she has done for me.

Rachel Ranae Fitzgerald

This is one of her Senior pictures. Beautiful right?

Practically my sister. We are best friends. Funny memories at dance. We have danced together since 2005 and loved it every minute of it! She wants to come to BYU as well. I am behind her 100% no matter where she wants to go. Though.... I hope she gets in because then we would be dancing together at college. She also wants to do stuff with a dancing degree. I am proud of her no matter what happens.

Jessica Purdy

This picture was taken at dance one day. I couldn't dance because of my walking boot and we just were having fun before class even started.

My Broken Ballerina. She is the other girl at Lifehouse that always got hurt. She is a beautiful dancer and I miss her guts! She is a Freshman in High School right now. haha Jessica. We have many inside jokes..... ex: I just kicked a box of babies. She is a sister of mine, not just some friend to add to the list.

Matt Doane

This was taken on Matt's phone. We had gone around making chalk drawings all over Wyview for FHE and we got each others faces with the chalk. That was fun. Very fun. you probably can't even tell that we are COVERED in chalk. I would not have missed this night for the world.

He is my home teacher and is in my FHE group as well. I feel like I can tell him anything. We go on walks all of the time. It is nice. I can just be open with him about anything. I cherish that in a person. He is hilarious! I don't know what I would do with out him as a friend.

Jerika Hiatt

My other Broken Ballerina. She is the one with the rib sticking out... it is called her Ezma (from Emperors New Groove) boob. Think about it.... it makes sense. I didn't come up with it either -some one else did.

Jerika is just like Jessica. We have inside jokes, we play, we laugh, we cry, we get hurt. haha She is a Sophomore in High School at Payson High (See, proof that Payson does have some good haha j/k ;D ) and is on the Dance Company there. I am proud of her accomplishments and hope for her to keep succeeding in everything she does. She is a sister not just a friend.

Celeste Lee

This picture was taken on our way to our competition in Branson, MO our Sophomore year.

15 years. Enough said. I don't know what else I would say besides that. We grew up dancing together and are now both in the dance majors at BYU. I am at Provo and she is at Idaho unfortunately... :( I am happy for her though, BYU-I is a good school and it is where she needed to be. I miss her very much.

Blaine Jensen

I don't know where this picture was taken. I just picked a random picture.

He is a kid I have gotten to know very very well, and I am so glad! He is from New York. He is in my FHE group. He is just such a great guy. He knows what is right. It is hard some days to accept things as they are and he helps me see that it is okay and that things are going to get better.

Ben Cowley

Yes I know there are three of us in this picture. I needed one of Ben so I picked this one. It is pretty much my favorite picture. This was taken at the Senior Dinner Dance we had last year.

Ben.... OH Ben! What to say about him. He became one of my best friends my Senior of High School. He was there for me when others were not. He is a good guy and wants to help others. He is brilliant! He is an amazing tenor. He goes to Snow College on a scholarship just like Spencer. He is there for a lot of things on a scholarship. Jealous. Very much. Love him to death!

McKenna Meservy and Adrienne Clark

They took this picture themselves... it explains so much.

They are my sisters as well. I miss dancing and goofing off with them. They have helped me get to where I am as a dancer right now. They have encouraged me so much to succeed. I can see them both having good futures in dance - actually in anything they ever do. They have the most determined minds. They can't be moved when they set their minds on something.

Lexi Brown

COLOR FEST!

Lexi has been with me since second grade. I am so lucky to have her. We always play when she is up in town. She goes to Snow College and is down there on a scholarship for singing. I am so happy for her to be down there. I love singing with her and just being around her. I am excited to go and spend the day at Snow this coming week and then spending my birthday with her. Thank you for always being there Lexi.

Those are just a handful of some of my closest friends that came to my head. Don't worry, if you aren't on the list, I promise I love you! Don't hate me. ;)

Day 10- What's Your Song?

What do I listen to??

Oh here we go...

Canvas by Imogen Heap: Feeling mysterious and want to just dance around.

First Day from Finding Nemo: Adventurous feeling

Uncharted by Sara Bareilles: Feeling determined

Aha! by Imogen Heap: Crazy and creepy days with the girls

More Than The World by Mindy Gledhill: When I need a spiritual uplift.

I Dreamed a Dream from Glee: When I just want to plain sing and belt it out! So pretty.

Bluebird by Sara Bareilles: When I feel lonely and heart broken. Mostly heart broken.

Nike Theme from Austin Powers apparently: When I am feeling saucy and want to just have it out in a jazz dance!

Gonna Get Over You by Sara Bareilles: The theme song of my life during September and October. Not so much now. Funny how things change and people change.

To Build a Home by The Cinematic Orchestra: Betrayed by some one.

Radiate by Flemming and John: FUN!

Yeah those are just some of the songs I listen to and what is going on when I want to listen to them.

Day 9-Proud Moments

I have had some obvious moments that I have been proud of myself this past week (i.e. Dance Ed Major acceptance and getting a teaching job at my old dance studio).

Some new ones are:

1-I woke up this morning and actually made it to my 8 am class. I think it will be a lot easier for me to wake up and go to a 7 am class (which I have next semester unless the music for dancers class opens up) because it will be a class that I actually want to go to. Getting up is hard for me most days...

2-I registered for my second semester as a Freshman this morning at midnight. I wanted to go to bed around 10:30 or 11:00 pm but I needed to get classes so I couldn't really do that. I got almost all of the classes I wanted though so it was worth it.

3-I felt really good about my Book of Mormon test that I took last night. I hope I got a good score. I studied for four freaking hours! It was worth it. I just need to keep telling myself that I only have McCarty (who isn't an actual Religion Professor by the way) for a few more weeks.

4-I am working really hard in my dance classes.

5-I finished my first dance performance at BYU. That is something I am very proud of!

I like proud of myself moments. I feel so much better about myself when I have them. I feel like I really can do anything when I have them. :)

Day 8-My Short Term Goals

Oh this is a bother. I am not that good at making goals. I usually just make a list of things I need to do or things that are going on that I would like to get done but it isn't a "I will get this done by this day because it is a goal I have." I do make goals but they are usually long term goals I guess. For example: Getting into BYU and then my preferred major. They took time. October was just a get ready for the Audition month. I focused a lot on finishing the goal I had wanted to accomplish. I don't really do goals I guess is what I am saying. I really only have three goals for this month: Turn 19 (Wednesday November24, 2010), get a really good grade on my Book of Mormon test (taking it today), and pay off my debt to Lifehouse by becoming a teacher (starting next Tuesday November 9, 2010).

So instead here is a list of things that are going on this month.

• I am going to go to the So You Think You Can Dance Tour with my friend Heaven.
• I will be turning 19 on the 24th of this Month.
• A good number of my friends are leaving on their missions so I will be going to their Farewell's (oh sorry, talks before they leave on their mission haha).
• There is a Dance performance every weekend this month. They started with the Faculty Works Concert last week. This week is the Ballet Showcase performance. Next week is Dance Sport as well as the DancEnsamble concert. The week before Thanksgiving is the Senior Projects performance. Crazy exciting! I want to got to everything so bad!
• I am going to be going to the Men's and Women's Choir concert this Saturday. I got the tickets for free from my friend Erik Ward. He got two for being in it and was going to give them to his parents, but they bought tickets already so he gave them to my roommate Tiffany and I. It will be very good.
• I will be starting my new job at my old dance studio-Lifehouse Performing Arts Academy. I just got the job today from Nesha (Artistic Director of the Company) and I am so crazy excited.

I don't really have anything else that I can really think of. Goals... Not really my thing I guess. It kind of makes my life more hectic to have them. I concentrate on them way too much when I have them.

Day 7- Brittany Moody Kuresa

Who inspires me any why.

Gillian kind of already took mine and I feel the same way she does. Ammon is amazing and I love him very much. Take a look at Gillian's blog for him. I will do another person because I can. haha

Brittany Moody Kuresa-

My old dance teacher. I had her for four years. I was blessed to have such a wonderful teacher. She has helped me along side of Nesha Woodhouse to become who I really want to be as a dancer.

I never really thought that I would be doing Dance Education as my major at BYU. Brittany helped me feel like I really could get somewhere with dance. I look up to her so much. Her advice and approval means the world to me. Her husband got a job at a law firm in Chicago so they moved out there. It was very bitter sweet to leave the studio but to leave her was even worse. I was leaving as well to take the next step in my life as a college student. I will never forget what she has taught me and I want to be just like her.

Thank you Brittany.

You have had a lasting impression on me.

Day 6-Iron Man I Guess

My favorite Superhero.... Oh my I don't really know.

I guess if I have to pick it would be-

Iron Man! He is the bomb.com. He shows that anyone can be super. He made himself super by using his brain...

I really don't know. I just like him. He is cool.

Day 5-Huntington Beach, California

I told you I would get better... I just have a hard time finding time to do this. :)

Huntington Beach, California. I went to California for the first time in March for Choir Tour. We went to Huntington Beach that Saturday. It was the first time seeing the Ocean-ever. It was fantastic and I loved every minute of it.

Day 3-D241, Day 4- Habits I hate, & Exciting News!

Day 3- A picture of me and my friends.This is a picture of my friends in my Dance 241 class. This picture was taken on Thursday. We dressed up for Halloween and had a lot of fun. They are some of the greatest people I have ever met in my life.

Day 4- A habit I wish I didn't have.
Oh my I have a lot of habits that I wish I didn't have. I wish I didn't have the habit of not putting my clothes away when I first wash them. It just is more of a hassle for me to do when I don't do it rather when I put them away right from the beginning. But finding time to do that lately has been hard. I am glad that I just did it the other day. Oh how a clean room can make you feel so much better.

On a side note:
I auditioned for the Dance Education Major at BYU today. It was so much fun! We have four different departments that we had to show in. We started with a bare in Ballet (flat thank heavens) and then we learned the combination that we could pick at the end to show in smaller groups.
After the Ballet combination we did Ballroom. We learned a Samba and that was awesome! It was the first time I had ever done any Ballroom in my life! It was very fun. I like Ballroom.
We learned a Hungarian Gypsy dance for the World Dance Department section. I ended up showing that one over the Contemporary combination we learned at the end. The Hungarian Gypsy dance was the easiest for me to pick up because it had a lot of rhythmic sections with the feet.... aka... I am a tapper for at least 11 years so rhythms are not that hard for me.
We also learned a locomotor (across the floor) combination and we got to add our own little flare at the end with an air moment of our choice. I got a lot of air and it felt nice to just do a combo like that.
We showed the piece we had chosen and then were excused until they posted the list of the Call backs, automatic in, and the we are sorry, try again, we would not like to see you do a solo lists. I did Dance Education and they wanted to see us do our own choreography so we all had to do a call back. I had changed my song because I needed one to just play with and have fun. I didn't want to worry so much about forgetting my choreography and totally bombing it. I improved my piece. It was good apparently.....
I got in the major in short version. haha :) I just wanted to have fun and play today and I have worked so hard my whole life to do this. I am doing what I love to do. Dancing is everything in my life so making the major is just bliss!

Day 2-Katy

Okay I am a day behind because of my concert and I have to be fast right now because I have to go and finish getting ready for my show.

The meaning behind my blog title. It is my nickname. Nothing really special about it besides the fact that it is me.

Better Blogging

So my sister Gillian has this posted on her blog, and tagged me in it so I guess I should do it. Hey who knows... Maybe I will be good at doing this thing called blogging by doing this?

Each day of the month, write a blog post according to these guidelines below:

Day 1-Recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

Day 2-The meaning behind your Blog name

Day 3-A picture of you and your friends

Day 4-A habit that you wish you didn't have

Day 5-A picture of somewhere you've been to

Day 6-Favorite super hero and why

Day 7-A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

Day 8-Short term goals for this month and when you'll accomplish them

Day 9-Something you're proud of in the past few days

Day 10-Songs you listen to when you're bored, happy, sad, mad, hyped

Day 11-Another picture of you and your friends

Day 12-How you found out about blogger and why you have one

Day 13-A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

Day 14-'A picture of you and your family

Day 15-Put your ipod or shuffle on-first 10 songs that play

Day 16-Another picture of yourself

Day 17-Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

Day 18-Plans/dreams/goals you have

Day 19-Nicknames you have and why you have them

Day 20-Someone you see yourself marrying or being with in the future

Day 21-A picture of something that makes you happy

Day 22-What makes you different from everyone else

Day 23-Something you crave for a lot

Day 24-A letter to your parents

Day 25-What I would find in your bag

Day 26-What do you think about your friends

Day 27-Why you are doing this 30 day challenge

Day 28-A picture of you from last year and now-how have you changed?

Day 29-In this past month, what have you learned?

Day 30-Your favorite song

So, I will start with day 1.

Not the most recent picture of me but it is my favorite picture of me at the moment.

1- I have Spina Bifida just like my brother Ammon. I have the most mild case called Spina Bifida Aculta. I am not in a wheel chair but my back has issues every now and then.

2-I come from a family of 11 children and I am the 10th within that.

3-I have only kissed three guys and I am proud of that. I would hate to be one of those girls that has kissed more guys than she can count like a couple of girls that I know. I would still like to say to my daughter that I know who my first kiss was. I don't think some girls could do that.

4-I have trained in tap for about 11 years.

5-Like my sister, I didn't have a phone until I was 18 years old. It would have been nice to have during High School to get a hold of people a lot easier but it wasn't a necessity back then. I need a phone now because I am on my own so I got one. It is nice and it doesn't cost much... basically nothing. It would actually cost me more to cancel it then to have it.

6-I am a lot like my sister Gillian because it takes a lot for me to hang up my clothes when they are clean.

7-I also have a bone missing from my foot as well... well both feet. I broke the bone off right before my Sophomore year in High School and had surgery on both feet the first month of school.

8-College life has helped me become a much cleaner person. I was clean before but not like crazy clean. I am getting really crazy with cleaning. I start cleaning, I sometimes can't stop.

9-My best friend is Celeste Lee. My heart goes out to her because I miss her so much. She went to BYU-Idaho and I stayed here in Utah County to go to BYU-Provo. We have known each other for 15 years! We started dancing together when she was 3 and I was 4 with Miss Debbie at Children's Vision. She is a Dance Major up there and I will be auditioning for the Dance Education Major on Friday. Dance is what brought us together and much more has kept us as best friends. I tell her everything.

10-I get injured really easily. I have sprained and twisted ankles as well as shin splints countless times. Sophomore year of High School I had both feet operated on and had to wear shoes (the medical kind that look like duck feet) for about two weeks. My Junior year I had a walking boot on my left foot for a fractured 5th metatarsal. My Senior year I had a walking boot on twice on my right foot for a stress fracture of my heel and I tore my Anterior Tib muscle in my right leg twice as well. Very prone to injury because of going for things at dance.

11-I love hand sanitizer... especially when I am not feeling well. It is just so nice.

12-Shoes... I love shoes! I plan an outfit by what shoes I want to wear. Is that bad?

13-I want to travel. I loved flying so much and want to do some more of it.

14-I love food. I can't imagine what it would be like to be an anorexic . That would be so scary. I am a dancer but no anorexic.

15-I can't wait until I get married... but I am not ready to, if that makes sense.

Anyways, here is my day one! Hope you enjoy.

Always a good sign

Midterm.

A word I do not like very much. My midterms exams layout:

Monday 10-11-10: History 220 -Essay... ugh! I hate those things. They creep me out!

Wednesday/Friday 10-13-10/10-15-10: Dance 335 -Tap exam. My group didn't get to go because of time so we are going to go tomorrow which leads me to...

Friday 10-15-10: Dance 241, Dance 335, and History 201 -241 is just an evaluation, we have had one already and I have a great partner... Sammi Magoffin (from Lifehouse, a good friend of mine)! 335 is just showing how our technique has gotten better on Como Va (a dance that my muscle memory is super strong on from last year so I am a little worried but not enough to freak out about). 201 is a multiple choice, short answer and a one essay test. I actually am not that worried. I am going to study really well tonight. I feel pretty prepared.

Monday 10-18-10: Dance 170 -written quiz about the dances and cultures we have done for Folk Dance. It will be easy. Not bad, just hard to put the dance to the name.

Wednesday 10-20-10: Dance 170 -Dance evaluation. Just performing some of the dances we have learned. Not bad, just hard to put the dance to the name.

I just read Elder Joseph Vaugn Mohrman's Mission blog. I am so happy that they have done this for his mission. I feel like I can always know what is going on. I love being able to read about his experience. With all of the struggles that I have had lately with missing my friends he, and Brandon Scott Barlow (who just got made a trainer and senior companion after being on his mission for less than 5 months!) are the two that I miss the most. I could tell them everything and they always had great advice to give me when I needed it. They knew how to make me smile when I was in a rut.

I taught my first lesson in Relief Society on Sunday. It was on repentance. The thing that I tried to do the most was to focus on how important it is for us to repent because we are always slowed down or stopped in our spiritual progression if we don't. I didn't want to focus on the fact that we all need to repent and we all should or we are damned because that just makes everyone feel bad and we already know when we need to repent and for what. I didn't want to make them feel like they needed to. I wanted to let them know that none of us are perfect but we can all get one step closer by going through repentance. I think it went well. I was pretty nervous at first because who wouldn't be if this is the first actual calling you have ever had besides 1st and 2nd counselor as well as the secretary in your YW group?

I saw Celeste Lee, my best friend for 15 years (crazy, yes) this last Saturday. She just randomly came down to Utah with a friend from BYU-I. We hung out that night. I had her all to myself. Yes, I was selfish with my Celeste time. :) We had a great talk while she treated me to dinner. I wasn't expecting that at all, she just was like, "Can I treat you to dinner?" I wasn't about to say no, and I really didn't care if we went to eat or not. I was hanging with her and that is all that mattered. We went to Gloria's Little Italy on Center St. in Provo. It is very authentic Italian food, and I LOVED IT! I found out from talking to Celeste that her Mom is declared clean from her Thyroid Cancer that she had over the summer. It was very hard on Celeste and her family and I am so happy that Shawny is doing much better. Celeste (who should in reality be a Senior in High School this year, but skipped a grade so graduated with me) is dating this guy named Tyler. He is a return missionary and she didn't see this coming. I did though. She is so lovable and beautiful and everything so I can see her getting married with in the year. I did say though to have it be a long courtship and a short engagement. Get to know each other before anything is set if marriage is what they want in the long run. I am so happy for her. :) YAY!

Things are going really well other than the stupid midterms. Ew. Oh well, I will get over it.

• I love that I am so close to my family. I can go home and visit them any day. A lot of people in my ward can't do that because they are from out of state or hours away instead of just 20-45 minutes away.
  
• I hate that I miss my high school friends so much. I told them everything. Who do I tell my deepest troubles to now other than my mommy like I usually do?
  
• I love dancing in college. It makes life so much nicer. I feel so much better about myself as a person and dancer then I have in a really long time. My senior year at Lifehouse was really hard on me with injuries and a teacher that I felt emotionally abused by. That will never happen again so long as I am dancing at BYU. I am able to keep the spirit with me when I dance; the spirit I felt when I was with Brittany, Brigette, Ashleigh, and especially Nesha. I want to have that spirit with me at all times. I want to teach like Katheen and Colleen do.
  
• I hate feeling alone. I don't feel like I have anyone to connect with right now. Yeah I have made a lot of new friends, but everyone just expects me to be able to be fine because I am from Utah and my family is so close. I don't have it that hard but I still struggle. In a way I feel like it is harder for me to adjust to this new part of my life because I am so close to my parents, those siblings that still live in Utah, and those close friends are only, what? 80 or so miles away? They are so close yet I can't see them and just bawl.
  
• I love my ward. My visiting teacher Kirsten is amazing! I love her so dearly. We clicked. Her and another girl named Anna (who I visit teach) have really helped me feel like I have some one to cry to. My home teacher is Matt. He is also my FHE brother! We have fun. He and his companion Carter Monson will be coming around soon to give me my first lesson. My bishop and his wife are sent from God. In so many ways is that statement true! Bishop and Sister Davis are the bomb.coms to the extreme! They just make me laugh and they show how much they love us, each and everyone of us. I teach for the first time ever on Sunday and I am scared to death. All I can really do is do what David M. McConkie taught in his General Conference.
  
• I hate not having my own room/bathroom! I need my privacy! I have no where to just dance alone like I used to in my room all of the time. I can't study how I want to because of roommates or just too many distractions around me. I can't just cry in my room with out having someone in there as well. I feel like I can't be myself. When I shared a bathroom with Gillian and Dave it was not hard but for some reason I can't stand sharing a bathroom with two girls that shed..... yeah sick, nasty. I thought I shed really bad (Gillian, you know how bad that really is!)? Well, I don't compared to my roommates. Don't get me wrong, I love my roommates. They are way awesome but I feel like I can't do what I would like to half of the time.
  
• I love having a job. It brings an amazing sense of security to my life.
  
• I hate sitting in a computer chair for hours on end. This is the bad end of the stick with my job. I sit for hours at a computer doing sometimes nothing because we don't have anything to do. I get so antsy and just want to move around. This tends to be very hard for a dancer... especially one as crazy as I am.
  
• I love my new friends. Thank you so much to Matt, Trace, Blaine, Brad, Kirsten, Anna, Tiffany, Deanna, Elisabeth, Erik, Chad, Brayden, Courtney, Sharlee, Lauren, Kayla, Kellianne, and Emily! You guys make it seem like my life isn't so hard. You make me laugh, you help me through a hard day. A simple smile from one of you makes my day.
  
• I hate stress. It is the BANE of my existence. I will die from stress I bet you anything. Hopefully I can lower my tolerance to stress because I won't have as much that way. I can only tolerate so much stress.
  
• I love time. Time to live my life how I want. Time to live on my own, as hard as it is. Time to make a living. Time to dance. Time to cry. Time to sing. Time to play. Time to read. Time to pray. Time to ponder. Time to listen. Time to watch. Time to cook. Time to EAT! Time to muse. Time to SLEEP! Time to study. Time to go to class. Time to CHOREOGRAPH!! Time to rehearse. Time to visit with family. Time to see old friends. Time to make new ones.Time is a wonderful thing.
  
• I hate that I don't have enough time. I need more (as you could probably guess by the list above)
  
• I love my family. They mean the world to me. My parents, bothers, sisters, brothers in-law, sisters in-law, nieces, nephews, cousins, aunts, uncles. Thank you for being there for me always.
  
• I hate that my brothers and sisters almost all live out of the state of Utah. COME BACK! I need you. You are mine, not the worlds. What are you thinking when you think that you can be some where that makes you happy when I need you? ;) I hope you will visit me soon. We all miss you. I hope I can come and visit you some day as well.
  
• I love my girls at Lifehouse. They are my family other than my flesh and blood real family. I don't know what kind of dancer I would be right now with out them. I have learned so much from them, especially this last year.
  
• I hate that I miss my girls at Lifehouse. It is the same feeling of being alone. I was with them all of the time. I saw a huge chunk of them at school every day and then everyday after school at the studio so not seeing them is like a culture shock to me. I miss Grace so much! Grace, you have become such a great friend to me and I will never forget how we became this way. It took a while (first with us thinking the other one hated us and then the three years you were gone in Nebraska) but man, oh man am I happy that we became so close! I miss all of the crazy inside jokes we had like the Broken Ballerina Club that I was the president of (rightful president to thank you!) and the box of babies. hahaha! Oh man I miss you all! I can't wait to dance with you again some day girls. Hopefully it won't be too long.
  
• I love being able to dance. It is my escape from life and into the spirit. I lose myself in the moment and discover something new all of the time. Dancing is my life. It is who I am and will continue to be. So if you don't like it, get over it! It will not change.
  
• I hate getting hurt. I am always hurting for some reason or other. SHINSPLINTS SUCK SO FREAKING BAD!! I had to go and get a calf massage in the Dance Training room because they were so bad. I have muscle bruises that are almost gone because of that massage. It was not fun at all. I had to walk around BYU campus with huge ice packs for three hours taped to both shins because of the pain. Yeah, stretch your calves ladies and gentleman, it will save you a trip to the physical therapist! Other injuries include; the knee when a storm is coming (yes it actually is a proven scientific fact and I can explain it if you want me to. Just ask), the stress fractures to the right heel twice last year (one of them causing me to miss the BYU scholarship auditions and company auditions), the torn Anterior Tib muscle on my right leg twice last year as well, the fractured 5th metatarsal in my left foot the year before (junior year), and the foot surgery to both of my feet my sophomore year. Wow. I hate it. There is always something.
  
• I love that I have an able body to move in. It is such a blessing, one that I would never want to lose.
  
• I hate not being in choir at high school. I went and listened to my old high school choir this week have their first concert and they are so good! I miss the good memories. I don't miss the price though, that will never be missed. I don't think that I would enjoy being in a choir in college nearly as much as I did in high school because college would require too much of me. :) I am excited to audition for Young Ambassadors though.... haha :)
  
• I love singing. I want to sing on the top of my lungs all of the time because I never get to anymore. I miss singing pieces by crazy Finnish composers (Pseudo Yoik) and very talented men that put poems to music (Eric Whitacre -Sleep, Cloud Burst, Lux Arumque ect.).
  
• I hate school work. It makes life so much harder.
  
• I love that I don't have a lot to hate. It could be a lot worse, I promise. If I had written this last month, I am almost positive it would have been all "I hate" statements.
  
• I hate that I hate so much. I need to look for the positive in things more. It is a good quality to have so I am going to try to acquire it.
  

The makings of good days

Yesterday was one of the best days of my life!

My friend Joseph Mohrman leaves on his Mission on September 8, 2010, to the Belgium Brussels/Netherlands Mission (Dutch just like Dave). He went through the temple back in June when I was in Iowa and I hadn't seen him since the beginning of June. I really missed seeing him around so yesterday we finally got to hang out. Well can you guess what we did??

We went to the Mt. Timpanogos Temple and did Baptisms and Confirmations for the dead. I will never forget it because one, it was at a temple I had never been to, two, I did a lot of baptisms (the most in a row for me), and three, Joseph did the Confirmations and the Baptisms! It was such a great experience to have my best friend .Baptize and Confirm me... and before his mission too! The whole thing was just really special. As we were walking out to get in the car he said that he had only done that one other time. I asked him who it was and he answered, "A stranger. You were the first friend I have done that too and that was really special."

After that we went to Cafe Rio. We both love Cafe Rio. He wouldn't let me pay for mine though. It was nice of him and I appreciated it. We went over by the Marriott Center where they have a grassy hill and ate over there. It was a blast to just sit and talk to him as well. There was not a single pause the whole day. I don't think I have laughed that hard or that much in a long time.

It just goes to show that Baptisms + Cafe Rio + Good company = One of the best days a girl can have.

Summer

Summer is a wonderful time full of wonderful weather and wonderful people to share the wonderful weather with right? I would say so, that's for sure.
This summer is a big deal for me. I am going on to BYU in the Fall and am moving out in exactly 49 days if you include today and the actual day I move into my apartment. I just found out like twenty minutes ago that I don't have to pay the tuition money that I thought I was going to have to pay. The total amount is not in the 1000's like I had thought, but only $567.00! Insane! I started to cry when I read that. I got an email saying that I had activity on my account so I checked it out and looked at the activity details and sure enough they finally added the free tuition I get for Mom being a BYU Employee.
Every summer I work with Ammon. That has been my main source of income for the last what four years? I tried to get a job last summer and no one called me for an interview. I didn't think that I was going to be able to get a job at all this summer, let alone on BYU Campus. I did though! I work at CONE (Creamery On Ninth East). I don't have many hours but what I do have I am very happy that I have it! I am getting more money in my pocket!
This summer for the first time I actually have a special some one. Yes, we have kissed, for all of those that are even wondering... of course we have, it has been 3 1/2 months since we have started dating. He is only 11 days younger than me but he has to wait until May to go on his Mission. August will be the last month that we will be dating because although he doesn't leave until May, I will be going to BYU and he will be going to SNOW College. I am so sad about that but I know that I want to make the goodbye fast. I don't want it to linger and go on forever like some people would. I just want to get it over with because I know it will be so much easier for both of us.
I was sick off and on the past two weeks. Aparently I had a mild case of the Stomach Flu. Dr. Valdez gave me the same medicine that Amy and Jen have used when they have been pregnant. Crazy huh?
Life has been so crazy but I am so excited to get on with it!

Prom

So last night was my Senior Prom and I had so much fun! I went with Spencer Ericksen and we had a blast! I borrowed my friend Kari Turner's dress and my other friend Katie Ryan's heels. Even with 3" heels Spencer was still taller than me by a lot!! We went to Carabas. It is an Italian Grill in the Universty Mall Parking lot. I love that place so much. I went there last year as well for Prom. The dance was held at Noah's in Lindon. It was so freaking far a way but we had fun there. Last years Prom was fun but this years was a complete BLAST! I had the best looking date and he is the sweetest! Here are a couple of pictures from prom that My friends and I took.

Girls have a certain affect on boys... this is one of them. haha

This one is cute. It is just outside of Noah's. The glasses are not real. I love them on him though! They are so much fun! I steal them from him all of the time.

This one explains so much.

The two of us just oustide of Carabas waiting to be seated for dinner.

Prom was just a blast. It was the only boy's choice dance I went to my whole Senior year and I am glad that I was able to go with Spencer. I will put the pictures we had taken at the pond later when I get them.

Recent pictures

John and Lance on Christmas morning.

Lexi and I being crazy the day we asked our dates to the dance.

Really pretty Sunset that I took... from the inside the car.

Me and my friend Nate. I took him to Preference last night. He reminds me a lot of Jess. This picture was taken about a month ago, so he doesn't have the beard anymore.